I am less than 48 hours away from one of the biggest days of my life. I have so many emotions running through my body and mind but not one of them is telling me no. Happiness is the one that most stands out. I was talking to a friend of mine the other day and she told me after the surgery I should blog, take pictures and maybe start a book. I thought that was one of the best ideas I had ever heard. Who doesn't like to know other peoples business and especially as juicy as this will be. It has been a really long fight for this surgery and I am so PUMPED I can barely contain myself.
If you keep up with my blog or maybe have read the previous post about the surgery I wasn't going to do it. Looking back who am I kidding? Yes, who wouldn't love to do it on their own? But at the same time the opportunity is here, why wouldn't I grab it and RUN...ha ha okay I don't do that so.... take it and split? Does that make sense? Ah, who knows...you catch my drift. I was reminded I'm an adult if I want to change my mind and have it done, no one can judge me.
I'm not going to lie, how weird it is going to be. I have always and so has everyone else known me as this, who I am now. A stocky, thick girl. But you know? Everyone will learn to know me as healthy and a little less stocky. It is going to bring major change for the good, I know it is not always going to be easy. But what life changing thing is?
This of course has been the topic of most conversations with those I share the information with. I was chatting with my roommate about all the things I can't wait to do that I think....no I know most people take for granted. It is very personal but I think if you read my blog I tend to get pretty personal. So you want to know the things I can't wait to do? The things that I know people take for granted? Okay...you asked here it goes....
I can't wait to look in the mirror and see an elbow and a knee cap. Those things have been hidden for years!!!
I can't to buy a watch and not have to buy extra links.
I can't wait to wear a regular pair of cowboy boots and not have them cutting my legs in half.
I can't wait to be able to shop ANYWHERE I want.
I can't wait to sky dive without having to pay the extra money because of my weight.
You know society is cruel and we all know there is an image that a woman is told she has to be. I DO NOT agree with what people think a woman should look like, if you know me at all you would know I go with the inside and the heart . BUT I would be a liar if I told you I wasn't excited about maybe being noticed a little more. Not just because of my personality...and don't get me wrong I love that I never meet a stranger and can talk to anyone but it will be nice to be noticed more. I don't think I am wrong in thinking that in fact I know I'm not.
I can't wait to not be nervous walking in...anywhere
I can't wait to not be paranoid every time some laughs around me that they are saying something about me
and you know? I just can't wait to see myself like everyone else sees me.
Ahh...I just can't wait.
My life is just now about to start and I can't wait to see what the next 60 or so years has in store for me!
I will be sure to post pictures and write how I feel!