Reality check.

No one likes to have reality checks but it is just something that happens from time to time. Whether God shows us, or someone that you are not expecting it from. Like I said previously I visited Georgetown Baptist Church and really enjoyed it, while sitting through worship and the sermon I had this conviction about not being happy with being single. Now let me back up, a few months ago I read a book which I would recommend to any single girl "When God writes your love story" by The Ludys. It allowed me to "get a grip" if you will. That it was okay that I was 21 and no where near being married, and with no potentials at hand. Like everything, that okayness wore off. God allowed me to move to Austin and in my head I just knew I was going to meet someone here, it just HAD TO HAPPEN. I found myself actively looking everywhere I went, which I thought was a great idea but in all actuality it is not for me. I walked in to church last Sunday and thought "Oh he is nice looking, wonder if he is in the singles group?" "Hmm..I wonder what his name is?" And as I sat there I knew I was wrong and that is NOT what God has in mind for me right now. Now, not that I was lusting after these men but instead of looking at them as my brothers in Christ I was looking for MY potential with them. What if I would cause them stumble? What if they caused me to stumble? All these questions and concerns filled my head I started praying. God allowed me to move to Austin and has handed this ministry over on a silver platter! I knew right then and there that my focus should be the ministry not my future, or my future husband. God has that in his hand and it is all planned to a T. I had this feeling that I wasn't going to get married when I thought I was which of course because my time and Gods time is different. I prayed and let it go...so I thought. A week passed and I was talking to my friend Leah about the same issue, it looked as though still a week later I was thinking and consuming myself about it. She made a comment that I will never forget...and right then I had my reality checked. "How are you going to teach and preach to young girls that it is okay to be single, when you aren't okay with being single yourself?" Funny eh? Here I am gearing and praying up about this all girl ministry, and wanting to teach them its okay to be single and to pray for their future husbands yet that is something that consumes my thoughts? That wasn't okay with me, and I know God is saying "Jana, you know what is right, you have prayed about it and I want to take it from you...you just have to give it completely to me! Not a little, not only sometimes, fully, and RIGHT NOW!" So that is my challenge. I know God has someone for me, and I have no clue about any details. That is the beauty of it. I love the scripture and used it all the time, I think it is perfect for this situation.

"For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future" -Jer. 29:11

He has bigger and better plans for me! I can not wait to see what they are! :)

xoxo
-J

That song in my head.

Yahoo for the weekend, eh?! :) This is has been a great first week of work I must say. I guess because of the craziness and newness of being here I have almost ignored a very important person trying to speak to me.  Jesus. <3. I have been a slacker on my quiet time this past week and God has for sure let me know. I have had this song in my head all week and had not a clue as to why, I am not even sure I have heard it this week. It is "The more I seek you." And the only part I could remember is ..."The more I seek you, the more I find you. The more I find you the more I love you." It was clear to me Thursday the TRUE meaning of what I was singing. I was wondering why I haven't I felt close to God? Why do I feel he is so distant? I wasn't SEEKING him. I wasn't trying to die in my flesh daily and live for him. I felt awful, I know everyone sins and has "dry" spots in their walk with God but it broke my heart. There is so much he has done and is doing for me, why can't he have 30 minutes of my morning? I sure could work out for an hour, or spend my time on Facebook instead of diving in the word and allowing him to speak to me. I started a Beth Moore study before I left home and have only cracked the book several times. I am in need for some worship and fellowship with other Christians, which is proven to be good for the soul. :) Part of something we should do...FELLOWSHIP! I am around Godly people at my home, but it is different to get out and meet new Christians and people who are longing to be closer to God. We are going to visit Georgetown Baptist church tomorrow and I am thrilled. I will be praying for a home church here. What better way to find friends than at church right? I am so excited to start this year off here and I am so ready to get plugged in where I need to be!!

So...I have a lot to do, and with my saviors help I am ready! :)

Until later gators!

xoxo
-J

Hey new girl!

Today was my first day at my new job! It went extremely well, everyone seems super nice and the banking center is small, a lot like home. I guess in a weird way it made me have a sense of security. Like I said a few days ago I was getting a little home sick, but I have to say I have made myself a routine and it has helped tremendously. My friend Alicia and I have joined Plant Fitness and we are going 3 times a week for now. We go in the mornings! I love going at that time, there is really no one there and it gives you a boost to your whole day. So that issue was taking care of! :) I went to dinner with my Aunt Kathleen and Uncle Jessie that live about 10 minutes away, we had a blast...we always do! While talking to them I found out that they go to a Baptist church in Georgetown, I was pumped! I haven't found a "home church" yet. I didn't want to stray away from my Baptist roots, but did not want to find myself in my same old comfort zone by going to a small small church. They said it was HUGE and had a College group! :) I am anxious to visit Sunday. Maybe that will become my home!

Oh and by the way...I died my bangs red and took my fake nails off. It didn't take long for Austin to get a hold of me! :)


xoxo
-J

Let's get it started!

Well hello friends!

 My friend Alicia blogs, my friend Becky, along with my cousin Katie. I have just recently moved to Austin, and thought this was a great way for my family and friends to keep up with me.I am super excited to see what God has instore for me, in the new chapter I am starting. I have been a stay at home roommate going on 3 weeks now and it is killing me. I start work on Tuesday and can not be more excited. These past 3 weeks have been sort of a blur for me, I went home one weekend for my grandfathers 85th birthday, although it was a WONDERFUL weekend filled with family and friends, I find myself a little homesick here lately. I am thrilled to start a routine tomorrow I know that will help with that. Anyway, keep coming back my friends I have a feeling this will be a new addiction for me! :)

xoxo
-J